MASKS,ALICE SAID WE ALL HIDE BEHIND THEM.OUR TRUE FACE IS HIDDEN WITH OUR HEART IN TODAY’S WORLD.WHAT A SHAME!!!

ALL OF US HAVE SOME DIFFICULT CIRCUMSTANCES TO FACE TODAY.SOME AMONG US FIND OURSELVES IN THE HOSPITAL OR IN JAIL.OTHERS ARE WORRIED ABOUT PRESSURES AND FRUSTRATIONS AT WORK.TENSIONS AND CONCERNS ABOUT WAR AGAIN.THE FUTURE OF THE WORLD AFFECT US ALL.WE HAVE SO MANY UNCONTROLLABLE CIRCUMSTANCES IN OUR LIVES, BUT WE DON’T HAVE TO GIVE OURSELVES OVER THEM. A MAN’S BODY MAY BE PUT IN JAIL WHILE IN HIS HEART HE IS FREE.WE BUILD A PALACE FOR OUR SPIRITS BY MAINTAINING CONTACT WITH OUR FAITH.WE ARE ALWAYS WITHIN THE CIRCLE OF GOD’S LOVE.ALWAYS! KNOWING THAT HELPS US MAKE PEACE WITH LIMITS ON WHAT WE CAN DO ABOUT OUR SITUATIONS.THEN WE CAN GO WORTH WORKING TO MAKE PEACE IN OUR RELATIONSHIPS,ACCOMPLISH WHAT IS POSSIBLE IN OUR LIVES,AND START HELPING OTHERS.SCOTT, WHY IS THE WORLD SO FAKE,NO ONE EVER SMILES ANY MORE.MAYBE THAT IS IT ALICE,IF PEOPLE WOULD SMILE MORE ,THEN WE MIGHT NOT HAVE TIME TO BE FAKE ANYMORE?EVEN I MANY OF TIMES HAVE TO REMIND MY SELF THAT THE FRUSTRATIONS AROUND ME ARE NOT ALL OF WHO I AM WHEN I AM AT PEACE WITHIN,I LIVE AMONG SPIRITUAL RICHES.IS’NT THAT THE WAY TO LIVE.BE THINE OWN PALACE,OR THE WORLD’S THY JAIL.MY GOD GIRL YOU GOT IT AGAIN.WELL SCOTT,I WAS TOO LIVING FAKE THIS WEEK.HOW IS THAT ALICE! I DIDN’T TELL YOU ALL OF WHAT WE ARE DOING THIS WEEKEND? DON’T SAY IT, NO,NO NO!I HOPE IT ISN’T WHAT I THINKING!SCOTT DON’T BE MAD NOW,I PROMISED THE HATTER WE WOULD GO TO THERE LABOR PARTY, PLEASE!!!! THE WHITE QUEEN WILL BE THERE?GIRL, WHY DO I LOVE YOU SO MUCH? BECAUSE I’AM SHORT!!! HA HA.WELL LETS SAY GOOD BYE.OK I WILL DO IT. TO ALL OUR BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS,HAVE SAFE AND SUPER, THREE DAYS OFF.GOD BLESS YOU ALL AND GODSPEED!!!1

I JUST WANTED TO SAY ALICE ,I LOVE YOU GIRL!!!

IT IS 3:30 AM IN THE MORNING TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHERE MY LIFE WENT. I GUESS WE ALL DO THAT ONCE OR TWICE IN LIFE.MY YOUTH SCATTERED ALONG THE HIGHWAY.TRUTH IS SO STRANGER THAN FICTION.I KNOW NOW GROWING UP IS NOT THE ABSENTS OF DREAMING,DREAMING IS A GOOD THING.IT IS BEING ABLE TO UNDERSTAND THE DIFFERENT, THE ONE YOU CAN HOLD AND THE ONES YOU HAVE BEEN TOLD.DREAMING IS A GOOD THING,IT BRINGS NEW THINGS TO LIFE.BUT PRETENDING IS AN ENDING OF THE POTENTIAL THINGS OF LIFE.THIS IS MY LAST TIME TO GET IT RIGHT.THESE ARE NOT TEARS IN MY EYES.THEY ARE ONLY REFLECTIONS OF MY LOWS AND MY OWN FINDINGS.BUT JUST REMEMBER THEIR IS A DIFFERENT BETWEEN DREAMING AND PRETENDING!!!1

ALICE SAID , THANK GOD,VANOVERLOOP IS ONE OF OUR BEST FRIENDS.

MEN ARE LONELY AND MORE VULNERABLE TO ADDICTIONS AND CODEPENDENCY WHEN THEY HAVE NO FIRM FRIENDSHIPS WITH OTHER MEN.DO WE HAVE  ONE OR TWO MALE FRIENDS WHO TRULY KNOW US,KNOW WHAT REALLY GOES ON IN OUR LIVES,WHAT WE FEEL,AND WHAT OUR DOUBTS ARE?IF WE DO, THESES RELATIONSHIPS ARE SO PRECIOUS.WE NEED TO NOURISH THEM.IF WE DO NOT,WE NEED TO FIND OTHERS WHO MIGHT BECOME FRIENDS.WE BEGIN BY MAKING SMALL STEPS IN THE DEVELOPMENT OF A FRIENDSHIP.SCOTT, THAT IS WHAT IS SO WRONG WITH THE WORLD TODAY.KIDS KILLING KIDS,BROTHER KILLING BROTHER.I KNOW ALICE ,IT TARES ME APART,BECAUSE OUR KIDS ARE COMING INTO THIS WORLD! THE JOYS OF SHARING WITH OTHER MEN,FINDING HUMOR IN OUR MUTUAL FLAWS,AND JOINING IN SIMILAR INTERESTS HAVE NO SUBSTITUTES.RELATIONSHIPS DEVELOP WHEN SOMEONE REACHES OUT.IT IS EASIER FOR US TO DO THIS IF WE REMEMBER OUR FRIENDSHIP IS A GIFT TO SOME ONE ELSE.WE NEED FRIENDSHIPS WITH BOTH WOMEN AND MEN IN ORDER TO BE WHOLE. BUT UNDERSTANDING OURSELVES AS MEN BEGINS WITH CLOSENESS TO OTHER MEN.SCOTT ,WASN’T IT WRITTEN SOME WHERE,HOW GOOD AND HOW PLEASANT IT IS THAT BROTHERS SIT TOGETHER.YES ALICE.IT WAS —PSALM 133 IN THE BIBLE.WELL YOUR RIGHT,WE ARE GRATEFUL FOR ALL THE PRECIOUS FRIENDSHIPS WITH MEN AND WOMEN IN OUR LIFE.THEY ALL HELP US GROW TO BE BETTER PEOPLE.GOD BLESS ALL ARE TRUE FRIENDS AND HAVE A SUPER WEEK.PRAYERS AND  GODSPEED TO ALL!!!1     NOW LETS COOK DINNER, I’AM COOKING.NOT AGAIN GIRL.LETS CALL FOR TAKE OUT.YOU GOT BIG GUY!!!1

ALICE SAID THE WORLD KEEPS CHANGING LIKE NEVER BEFORE.WE ALL HAVE TO TRY SO MUCH HARDER!!

OUR LIVES CAN BE LIKE A BATTLE BETWEEN DARKNESS AND LIGHT. THE DARKNESS MIGHT BE IN OUR  MOODS WHEN WE WAKE IN THE MORNING WITH FEELINGS OF DESPAIR.THEN WE CAN TURN TO THE LIGHT OF PRAYER FOR OPENNESS;”GOD HELP ME FEEL YOUR LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE” THE DARKNESS IS THERE WHEN WE ARE TEMPTED TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF A CLERK WHO  GIVES US TOO MUCH CHANGE.PERHAPS WE TELL OURSELVES,”EVERYONE DOES IT,IT WON’T MATTER IF I DO.                                                                                                                                                                        THEN THE LIGHT COMES AS WE REMEMBER THAT THIS THINKING DEMANDS RIGOROUS HONESTY, AND EACH CHOICE FOR HONESTY PROMOTES OUR GROWTH.THE DARKNESS MAY BE WHEN SOMEONE WE CARE ABOUT IS HURT OR IN DANGER OR TROUBLE,AND WE THINK,”I HAVE TO STEP IN TO PREVENT BAD THINGS FROM HAPPENING.”THEN WE TURN  TO GOD FOR STRENGTH TO STAY IN THE RELATIONSHIP OF LIFE,BUT NOT CONTROL IT! SO SCOTT, LIFE IS ALL ABOUT RIGHT OR WRONG.TO LIE OR TO NOT TO LIE.IT SEEMS SO SIMPLE.HOW DID WE GET OFF TRACK  SO MUCH.I REALLY DON’T KNOW ALICE?BUT I KNOW ONE THING,THERE ISN’T ENOUGH DARKNESS IN ALL THE WORLD TO SNUFF OUT THE LIGHT OF ONE LITTLE CANDLE. SO GIRL,LET TAKE LEAP OF FAITH BY CHOOSING AN ACTION AND ACCEPTING THAT ONE SMALL CHOICE FOR THE LIGHT MAKES A DIFFERENCE—EVEN IN ALL THE DARKNESS!!WELL WE GOT TO GO AGAIN,WE GOT PLANS FOR LUNCH WITH THAT CRAZY CAT.EVERY TIME WE GO OUT TO EAT,WHEN WE FINISH AND THEY BRING THE CHECK HE PULLS THAT DISAPPEARING  ACT. WELL ALL ARE BEAUTIFUL FRIENDS HAVE A GREAT  AND SAFE  WEEK END.ALICE AND I LOVE YOU ALL!!!1 GODSPEED…..

ALICE AND I CAN’T BELIEVE IT IS OVER.MY LITTLE GIRL IS HOME.THERE WERE SOME DAYS WE JUST HAD TO BLEED TO KNOW WE WERE ALIVE!!

WE’VE HAD PROBLEMS IN OUR LIVES WITH LIMITS.WE HAVE DONE SOME THINGS TO EXCESS AND OTHERS WE HAVE ENDLESSLY POSTPONED.SOMETIMES WE HAVEN’T HAD GOOD  JUDGMENT ABOUT WHAT WE OUGHT TO TELL SOMEONE OR WHOM WE OUGHT TO TELL.WE MAY HAVE KEPT SECRETS THAT MADE US SO LONELY AND VERY SICK.OTHER TIMES WE EXPOSED TOO MUCH IN INAPPROPRIATE SITUATIONS AND HURT SOMEONE ELSE OR OURSELVES.DEVELOPING THESE INTERNAL LIMITS IS A QUIET CHANGE THAT COMES WITH EVERY DAY  LIFE!GRADUALLY, WE GAIN A STRONGER FEELING OF SELF-RESPECT AND BECOME MORE INTUITIVE ABOUT WHEN TO EXPRESS SOMETHING AND WHEN NOT TO.                                                  SECRETS ARE LINKS IN OUR CHAINS OF BONDAGE TO ISOLATION,ADDICTION, AND CODEPENDENCY.YET,WHEN WE ARE COMPELLED TO TELL EVERYTHING,WE LACK THE FEELING OF SELF-CONTAINMENT THAT COMES FROM MATURITY.WE NEED A SENSE OF PRIVACY WHICH IS THE FREEDOM TO CHOOSE WHAT AND WHEN TO CONFIDE IN A FRIEND.WHAT DOES OUR INTUITION TELL US TODAY ABOUT OUR PRIVACY AND OUR OPENNESS???? THINK ABOUT IT!             TALK AND TELL THINGS TO OUR KIDS THAT NO ONE WILL.WE DO HAVE THE ANSWERS BECAUSE WE MADE THE MISTAKES.THIS BULL SHIT ABOUT TIME OUT AND TUFF LOVE DOESN’T WORK! THEY NEED HUGS AND WORDS LIKE ,GREAT JOB,THANK YOU,AND MOST OF ALL . I LOVE YOU O SO MUCH!!! ALICE,JUST LISTEN TO YOUR INNER MESSAGES.WE SHOULD ALL DO THAT.HERE COMES ONE NOW.WHAT IS IT.WE ARE NOT GOING THE TALK TO THE MARCH HARE THIS WEEK END,HE ‘S GOT SOME ISSUES, OR HE HAS BEEN HANGING AROUND EBSOLEM! EVERY ONE MY GOOD FRIENDS,HAVE A SUPER WEEK END.ALICE AND I LOVE YOU,GODSPEED!!!1

ALICE SAID SOME DAY I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO MEET THIS JO-ANNE SOFTMOONOWL! I LOVE THE WORDS FROM HER HEART.

SOME OF US WERE TREATED BADLY AS YOUNG BOYS AND GIRLS.WE NEVER LEARNED HOW TO LIVE FOR OURSELVES.WE CAN SEE ONLY TWO CHOICES:EITHER BE SUBMISSIVE AND CARE TAKING OF OTHERS OR BE ABUSIVE AND DEMANDING.MANY OF US HAVE SO MUCH GUILT AND SHAME THAT WE FEEL WE DON’T DESERVE TO STAND UP FOR OURSELVES.WE JUST MUST BE OURSELVES.IF WE DON’T KNOW HOW,WE MUST LEARN.IF WE ARE UNSURE, WE MUST EXPERIMENT’WHEN WE MAKE MISTAKES WE MUST ADMIT THEM AND KNOW WE HAVE A RIGHT TO BE IMPERFECT LEARNERS.AND WE CAN’T BE ONLY FOR OURSELVES.BECAUSE THAT KEEPS US SMALL AND TURNS US BACK TO WHERE WE CAME FROM.                                                                                                                                                    AS WE ACCEPT OURSELVES AND COME TO KNOW ,OUR IMPERFECTIONS AND WEAKNESSES,WE CAN UNDERSTAND OTHERS BETTER.WE ARE STRONGER IN GIVING TO OTHERS AND MORE EFFECTIVE BECAUSE WE A HAVE A PLACE TO STAND!!!         DIGNITY IS ALL WHAT IT IS ABOUT ALICE.EVEN IF YOU DON’T FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF.WELL SCOTT,IF I AM NOT FOR MYSELF, WHO IS FOR ME?AND IF I AM ONLY FOR MYSELF WHAT AM I ?AND IF NOT NOW ,WHEN ?YOUR YOUNG MY PRETTY ONE,YOU WILL GET IT. MAYBE IT IS TIME TO TALK TO ABSOLEM AGAIN.JUST STAY AWAY FROM HIS PIPE!!!1 WELL IT IS TIME TO SAY GOOD BYE TO ALL ARE SUPER FIENDS AND WISH THEM A SUPER WEEK END.BE SAFE AND GODSPEED!!!!!!!!!!!